How could I ever thank you all enough? you have helped me soooo much thank you!?

I don't have to let what she did destroy or hold my life in limbo at the point and time all this crap hit the fan. I feel liberated from so many painful feelings, by taking my life back. I think I thought I could not do anything to get free from the memories that I was supposed to work out forgiving so I could then release it peacefully. What I think now with all the help you people gave me is I don't have to stay there in the muck she created, that is her life not mine, I can live my life without her definitions,choices,beliefs,ideas,though… from that moment. That I don't have to let that crap decide my day or stop me from living right NOW for the rest of my life. I will not let what you did or said be with me anymore, I want to live now and not then, you were a loser and a loser does not get to hold me back from living or make me question my self worth or value. A loser is a loser not a wife or friend, I don't want to manage the damage control dept. in my heart for you anymore or rate you as viable source of influence.(to my wife in the past)You cannot have my tender openness or smash my sand castles anymore.You were a thoughtless mean uncaring loser and you don't deserve the time I have spent pouring over your words and deeds. Losers leave love, family, losers lie and cheat,losers crush and mangle their spouses.Losers say they never wanted children,losers have with a person infected with while they are married and nursing,losers abandon family.I don't have to and I am not going to give you the time of day anymore loser!! Obviously you did not love me or these children, or yourself and that is really sad.I am not going to ache cry wish morn hope wrestle beg plead , I am not going there anymore for every. Goodbye pain goodbye sadness, hello new day.