Im i gay or bi(cont.)......well when i went out with the girl everyone kept on saying why are you the girl in?

girl in the relationship. And thats why it always ended cuase i was being the girl in the relationship. This is what i want and i guess this is what makes me tink Im gay this is like around 50% why i think Im gay.I want to be the person who gets there waist or wherever wrapped around a arm and pulled back into a chest and be kissed. Also Im the person who doesnt want to be thhe person who gets cuddled by someone i want to be the person cuddling to someone. And i know im probably to young to think about but if i did when i was grown up i (no offense to the girls i still trust girls better than guys) when i have i would rather feel muscle on me then well ( i hate myself for saying this i sound ist)and intead of a flat surface on my private i would like well something there. And my dad he cheated on my mom with another girl and one day i was looking through his pics and there were pics of the girl naked and i saw the private part and i was like ewww u stick that in there